yoo just lettin ye know that i've changed my name from Gasp to.... Beanaru ..................................awkward pause
i was sick of having a name that meant nothing to me and only really having it because it was short.
ye know when you're 13 and you think "GEE WHIZ. I WANNA. i wANna name like UH ,,,aSs?!"
i thought since i won't be using it, i'll change to a name that i can relate to a bit more
(was going for beanaroo but typed in beanaru instead smh)
also!, a big sorry to my friends who i haven't kept in touch with for a while
i'm learning something about myself that i strongly dislike
i don't know how to control it, or whether i should even try to.
but recently i've been more and more 'distant' when it comes to keeping in touch with friends
and it's become harder to write to them. i don't know why but for some reason i just freeze.
it's like i keep wanting to just be alone, and being alone is nice but. to just not even bother with your friends like that is so selfish.
so i'm sorry if any of you folks have felt hurt by me not messaging often. it's definitely not your fault, its mine
i hope this phase will pass over but honestly it's been like this since around the end of 2013
it's ridiculous because the people i've met are beyond amazing, so to treat them this way is just. not right